I can’t handle myself, what should you do about it

I get to the point where I can't even handle myself, it's a feeling that I can't explain in words. What should you do about it?

That was a feeling that I frequently experienced when I fought with myself to fall into what I wanted to avoid so much and could not overcome.

It seemed like a losing battle, I continually fell, I felt extremely weak, I did not know if I could ever beat myself.

It happened to me when I argued with my partner, my mother or one of my siblings, anger made me lose my head and hurt the people I said I love with my words and I ended up frustrated, feeling defeated again and without hope that that or something could. change. He was carrying a huge mental backpack.

A stream of thoughts flocked to my head every night out of remorse or looking for the best solution to the problem that was tormenting me at the time. The minutes seemed eternal, without being able to silence so much mental noise, without knowing how to turn off my mind and be able to fall asleep, even for a couple of hours and rest. It seemed like an uncontrolled maelstrom that got bigger every day.

I believed that thinking was something normal and natural, something that all people do, I believed that it helped to exercise my mind.

By that time he was already suffering from depression, insomnia, colitis, and gastrointestinal problems. It led me to the degree of separation with my partner, I could no longer put up with myself, the feeling was so unpleasant that I never want to feel it again.

I started looking for something that would help me get out of that existential void, in which I felt myself sinking more and more and seemed to have no bottom. In the search, various techniques and alternative therapies arrived that helped me to realize the ignorance in which I lived in relation to the functioning of my body and mind. I started A coaching session to learn how to handle my thoughts and find a balance. I began to learn about gratitude and how to breathe to control myself, initially in guided sessions with a life Coach.

One day the invitation came to me from a friend to see a life Coach to get help. The coach taught me to empty and clean my mind. From the beginning, the technique of deep breathing seemed very easy and very logical. There I learned that everything that caused me suffering was due to the fact that my mind was saturated with emotions, negative thoughts and mental garbage that, without knowing it, I had accumulated for years and by emptying it, I could experience well-being, lightness and a lot of inner peace.

I realized that so much thinking only drained my energy and made me return to my past, full of regrets or continually traveling to the future, uncertain, with worry and anguish.

The more I practiced this method of breathing and gratitude, I felt that my world was expanding, I could realize that the world in which I lived was very small and now, I was attracted to know more and more, since, I began to experience a great improvement.

My whole world changed. My relationship with the people around me, my routine and the activities I did have improved considerably. All of this has pulled me out of the hole of suffering in which I lived.